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I could feel myself at your party, dancing to the lavender flames! I love the capitalization of Special and love the image of the still hungry fire sucking the texture off the snow. This is great - even if you did forget to toast me!

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Your poem is gorgeous, Lisa! I'm so excited for this community. I'm a bit late today so I'm sharing one I wrote in December.

Ignore the dark;

push her away with

artificial light and

push through with

artificial energy

I have little left of

already.

I am faking it,

to make...

what?

I am not some

factory-produced

artificial lightbulb

and I refuse to

burn myself out

trying to ignore

the dark any longer.

Instead, I think

I'll curl up with her;

settle in with

something warm

until the light

returns all

on its own.

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Thank you so much! I am thrilled that you’re here, and what a treat to read to your poem. I know that feeling of pushing through with artificial energy all to well well. I love the way you ended that stanza - “I am faking it to make . . . what?” What a powerful question.

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This is so resonant for me, particularly "I refuse to burn myself out trying to ignore the dark any longer." Yes - how much of my own light have I squandered trying to resist the moments of dark that are meant to be.

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A., this is a wonderful poem. I love every line, and the ending is captivating:

"Instead, I think

I'll curl up with her;

settle in with

something warm

until the light

returns all

on its own."

Curling up with darkness is wondefully evocative. I truly love this poem.

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Thank you Larry!

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Here's mine! I'm calling it "Last and First Campfire of the Year."

So sensible at the start:

Kiln-dried alder scraps

a few chunks of cordwood

many-fingered willow limbs

cut to fit

it pulsed and we fed it

cottonwood, fir

braced its flanks with

dimensional lumber ends

and it was still hungry

it sucked the texture

off the surrounding snow

and slicked up our dance floor

had us twisting to

You Never Can Tell

like Vincent and Mia

and kept getting hotter

its heart glowed lavender

a fact confirmed by those

not on mushrooms

“Does every fire look like this

and I’ve never noticed?”

I asked, and for the record

I wasn’t

and another who wasn’t

and always pays attention

said no

so that settled it: it was

Special

and we treated it as such

made offerings of

cutting board

(recently replaced)

bathtub candle holder

(scarcely used)

cupboard door

(I missed its origin story

but it did seem oddly small

and lonely)

not to mention

round after

round of

actual wood, and

it blazed us past

East Coast New Year

(barely registered, sorry)

then Central

(I toasted Arkansas)

then Mountain

(Utah, Montana)

we cooled our throats

with bubbly and watched

our Christmas trees

eat the last air

of 2023

and when the earth

came around for us

we group-hugged

and got serious for a moment

and the first flames

pumped our wishes

skyward

on jetpacks of ember

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Rebekah, this is a brilliant and beautiful poem. What an amazing weaving of a campfire with gathered community and the transitgion of one year to the next. I like the geographic toasting from east to west, and the wonderful way you welcome us in to the scene and the journey. Thank you!

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Rebekah, your parentheticals make me feel like I'm getting the real inside story, like a confidante you're pulling aside (so fun). And "its heart glowed lavender" is making my queer heart sing in return. <3

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I love how you've captured this memory!

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We celebrated our fortieth wedding anniversary on New Year's Day (yes, that seemed ,like a good ide forty years ago) and this poem, in some form, has been traveling with me recently. It has been a long distance through hike, destination still to be determined.

Two Elder birds gaze at 40

Forty years ago we made it official,

breathing into the circle the love growing in us.

We walked down the aisle as the music played,

the last straight line we traveled.

Across this vast landscaped of love

There have been long narrow roads,

steep, scorching trails that only knew up,

winding rivers where sound was our guide,

broad open waters with swells rising like homemade bread.

This journey through valleys and meadows,

taking us from ocean to mountain to sea,

Precious sparks of life that deepened our love,

expanding our hearts to include little hands and goes

as we became a family.

There have been shadows, too,

and times one or other have gotten lost.

Our solo paddles and treks painting

around the edges of our heart.

The losses came, and we understood,

there would always be more to come.

Tears flowed like monsoons in high desert;

Until the droughts came,

and it felt like there was no living water

to soothe our souls.

In each narrow passage, each desert path

glowed glimpses of hope and embers of love

crackling quiet in the ashes.

Through it all we remembered the promise

of that first kiss; that first winter night;

commitments made on mountaintops far away,

songs created that only we can hear,

a story with pages still to be written.

Two precious tender hearts,

gazing into the twilight together.

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Happy belated anniversary, Larry! What a beautiful poem. The phrase "the last straight line we traveled" grabbed me by the heart and took me into your journey.

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Thank you Lisa! Happy New Year to you and your beloveds!

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This is beautiful, Larry! I felt myself on the journey through this poem -- could picture all the wild landscapes that you invoked to tell the story. And oh yum, I like the sound of swells rising like homemade bread (more for the bread than the swells, I am a terrestrial creature). What a gift this poem must be for your spouse. Happy Anniversary!

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Thank you Rebekah! Happy New Year to you! !

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Happy belated anniversary! I love how you shared some of your journey with us here!

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Thank you A. Happy New Year!!!!

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Congratulations on the beautiful, multi-faceted journey of commitment you and your spouse continue on together (may you have many more adventures to come!) and on having written such a moving poetic tribute to it. I love the elemental imagery you have peppered throughout. You've artfully illustrated that the "weather" of a long-term relationship is every bit as mutable as it is in the natural world, with all its dramatic contrasts. Well done!

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Thank you Keith! Your brillant insights and perceptive comments are more striking than my poem, always a work in progress. Thank you for helping me to see the poem I wrote even more deeply. Happy New Year!

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Thank you so much for your beautiful poem, which reads like a self-reclamation manifesto in watercolor. Here is a rhymey poem I started last night after a twilight walk, then finished today:

Leaves once verdant,

gone quietly to husk

whisper soft comfort

into December dusk.

Clinging fast and fierce

to frozen oak and birch,

long past splendor of spring and

flourish of fall’s perch,

they blend quietly with monotonous sky

eluding the eye

that scans wearily for life amidst drear.

At the same time, heart and ear

easily, clearly sense and hear

their sweet, simple refrain

rustling on the breeze of a coming year.

For auld lang syne,

we’ll drink a cup of kindness yet.

For auld lang syne, my dear.

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This is so beautiful, Keith! And thank you for being the first brave soul to share here. There are so many phrases that captured me - “gone quietly to husk,” “rustling on the breeze of a coming year,” and “we’ll drink a cup of kindness yet.” Your poem feels like the first delicious sip!

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Keith, this is a wonderful poem. I love the flow and cadence and your terrfic ability to rhyme, something I struggle with. Your poem is full of wonderful imagery and invites me into the journey. Thank you for sharing.

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This is so lovely. I've always been enamoured by rustling leaves.

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Lisa, thank you for organizing and leading us on this journey. Your poem is remarkable. It is so moving, and I can see the places you describe and the girl struggling with identity and place in the world. Your final lines are extraordinary:

"You’re already beautiful.

You’re already good.

You are brushstrokes on canvas.

You are lilies on a pond.

Come out of that corner, and

enjoy your own becoming. "

What beautiful words, and I want to share therm with every child and teenager that I know. Thank you for sharing your marvelous heart and spirit!

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Thank you so much, Larry! I owe so much to you and A. Wilder Westgate because the supportive and loving interactions in the comments thread on Kaitllin's Substack are really what inspired this space and this shared adventure.

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You are welcome, Lisa. Your gift of welcoming and warmth are inspirational! Blessings to you!

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