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I think I was trying to find a start to part of this poem for a while, and the walking finally helped me put more of it together. (CW: hunting, butchering)

Heel to toe,

heel to toe.

I am repeating this in my head

as I tread through the woods

following my father, trying desperately to

keep pace with his long legs

without snapping every branch,

crunching every leaf

along the way, trying desperately to

keep the sound of my strained breaths

quieter than my clumsy feet.

I could be asleep, cozy in bed

and instead I am sweating,

stumbling, trying desperately to

keep the desperation off my face.

I could be reading, immersed in worlds

and instead I am attempting to disassociate

from this one, trying desperately to

keep him from knowing how much I hate this.

I could be the one kid who sticks with it,

the one who carries this on to the next generation,

who makes him proud

but I feel like I can barely carry myself -

let alone the weight of his hope -

through anymore forest.

I have already shot a deer, watched

with shining eyes as his knife cut

through the hide, smelled the bile

as I tried to keep my own stomach inside.

He told me he would teach me how to

clean a deer one day, in the careful,

practiced way I'd seen him do so many times,

and I thought there could be nothing worse

than plunging my hands into the warm body

of a being whose life I had just taken,

but the disappointment

when I finally put down his hope,

finally told him it was too much for me to hold,

finally let it go and embraced my own,

came awfully close.

The thing is, I would have gone -

would've happily trudged along -

if he had ever just asked me

to take a walk.

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This is gorgeous and heartbreaking. “ I can barely carry myself - let alone the weight of his hope.” Your poem reflects the experiences of so many children . . . and an experience I’m trying so hard not to create for my kids!

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My own cells felt gripped as I read this, A. I also felt the ache of being misaligned with someone we want desperately to feel aligned with. Beautragic.

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Wow A, this is so gripping and beautiful. I was especially struck by the "there could be nothing worse" part... and how your dad's disappointment came close. Thank you for sharing this.

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This is simply amazing. It’s so rich. All the details. I’m with you the whole way.

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This is stark and beautiful, powerful and moving A. I can imagine all those children following their parents or beloveds, not wanting to disappoint but also wanting to be anywhere but there. The analogy of your father's disappointment and your feeling of plunging your hand into the deer is searing. And your ending "if he had ever just asked me/ to take a walk." That resonates so close; all the timess I as a parent felt we had to do "something" for the day, instead of just being with, taking a walk, destination unimportant.

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"dogged as my own puckering heart." So many clever and delicious word pairings in this one, friend.

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Walk like you mean it.

Like you feel the solidity

of 4.5 billion years of rock

beneath your feet.

Like you know that it is only

by the grace of God and gravity

that you are not flung into the void

like just another shooting star.

Like you are open to receiving

the offer of unearned sweetness

from fruit and flower that have

miraculously managed

to bloom and ripen,

notwithstanding.

Like you are dancing

to the bird's song

of perseverance.

Walk like you mean it

and also like you bless it.

Every last bit of it.

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I love your powerful and to-the-point intro - walk like you mean it - and the way you carry and build that power all the way through to the end. I read this twice aloud and want to read it at least two times more!

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Ah, thank you for reading my poem aloud, and multiple times, no less! I'm glad you felt so moved <3 :))

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"Like you know that it is only by the grace of God and gravity that you are not flung into the void like just another shooting star" - oh my, friend. This one spoke to me.

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Thank you, A. So glad to know you connected with it <3

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This is splendid, Keith! “Walk like you mean it”. May we all! “That you are not flung into the void like just another shooting star.” True creative genius. Your poem is a walk about all on its own!

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Thank you, Larry…yes, may we all walk like we mean it <3

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"Walk like you mean it / and also like you bless it" -- this is such an inspiring poem, Keith!

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Thanks so much, Bekah - so glad you felt it so!

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Jul 29Liked by Lisa Jensen

I went backpacking over the weekend, my favorite kind of summer walk. Here is one thing that came out of that:

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It took me three days to get there,

after 7,000 vertical feet and 60 logs

scrambled over or around,

after the trail bear that bounded away

from my pup and crossed a quarter-mile

boulder field faster than I could lap a track,

after the coyote family that sounded like

ghosts at dusk, and were only made

not-ghosts by the odd stray yip,

after every rodent in the watershed

had been sufficiently terrified by my dogs

and by the yelling that accompanied

their pursuits because I did not want

warm blood on my hands,

after all the buzzing and whining lives

I took without compunction,

after two bad nights of sleep,

after the smoke breathed truth

in and out of the valley

and the eagle regarded me from

four different vantage points as I

gawked and snapped photos and

finally wondered who it was

.

and in wonder stopped narrating

.

and in wonder stopped struggling

.

and in wonder stood cradled

in feathered larch limbs and lakewater

and became the only person,

which is to say every person,

and floated almost the whole way

back to the trailhead

.

and am still floating,

a little bit.

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“The only person, which is to say every person.” I love this and how your poem carried me right into awe and magic and letting go.

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Oh, I love this! "and am still floating, a little bit." 🧡

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Such a rich sensory compote! I'm sure nothing compares to experiencing it first-hand, but I feel like I have a great sense of why you would still be floating a little bit.

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Jul 27·edited Jul 27Liked by Lisa Jensen

with wobbly clompy awkward stomps,

Your precarious teetering

moves forward.

Losing the tiny fingerholds

of confidence,

you topple,

as hands reach out to help.

& try again.

A joyful celebration at 1.

At 91, not so much.

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I lost count of the number of times my dad fell between 90-91. And yes, every time, some of his confidence and a lot of his dignity was lost. It was like watching a shipwreck (DeGaulle was not wrong).

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Jul 30·edited Jul 30

Yes. seeing the struggle to walk from both ends was polarizing(?) (not quite the right word)

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Jul 25·edited Jul 30Liked by Lisa Jensen

Hi friends. I already offered a poem, but thinking on Lisa's prompt reminded me of this poem I found in 1972, when I was a junior in high school, on the inner sleeve of the Album "Blue River" by Eric Andersen. It is Irving Layton's "There Were No Signs."

There Were No Signs

By Irving Layton

^

By walking I found out

Where I was going.

^

By intensely hating, how to love.

By loving, whom and what to love.

^

By grieving, how to laugh from the belly.

^

Out of infirmity, I have built strength.

Out of untruth, truth.

From hypocrisy, I wove directness.

^

Almost now I know who I am.

Almost I have the boldness to be that man.

^

Another step

And I shall be where I started from.

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Oh wow, this is wonderful! Thank you so much for sharing it, Larry!

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This really encapsulates the paradox of a human go-around…thanks for sharing, Larry

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I did not get out for a walk on this long work day, but went walking in my heart and mind.

Walking

^

Our journey began with a walk,

Two dreamers strolling through fire and ice,

Lost in the ever rolling stream of opening hearts

not caring where the path would lead

in these dark mountains.

^

Denials and hesitancies tried to pry their way in,

but love is lighter than air and stronger than fear,

able to bend and tear and absorb the broken pieces

the shattered stones become whole again,

hope rises from the ashes of what once was.

^

The trails have been winding and long,

our dance transparent along the streets and avenues

that still beckon our restless hearts.

Safety and security give way to silent resignation,

Our blue trains often stuck on incongruent tracks.

^

Along the way we have stumbled and fallen,

gotten lost in the haze of insecurity,

blinded by the light from distant shores

wandering and wondering where home is,

crying out that we have lost our way.

^

We keep walking through this perilous lovescape,

mountain meadows of exquisite flowers,

aching fields with the debris of too much said or left unsaid,

praying that the circles that take us outward

will turn and bring us home again.

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I love the notion of a "lovescape," complete with every kind of terrain. The line "love is lighter than air and stronger than fear" is just gorgeous. I'll be carrying that with me.

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Thank you Lisa! Love and light to you.

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“Love is lighter than air and stronger than fear/able to bend and tear and absorb the broken pieces” - gorgeous language and so evocative, Larry. Another lovely prayer-poem.

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Thank you friend. Your readings and comments always deepen my own understanding.

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Right back at you :))

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I love the imagery of breaking and mending, moving apart and back together again. It feels like a really honest depiction of love.

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Thank you A. As the songwriter Greg Brown sings “love is a gift, life is a journey. We’ll get them together one of these days…”

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Hubby and I are on a little weekend away and about to make a trip to Silver Dollar city where much walking is involved. I just hope my poor feet are up to it.

Do not take for granted

Your ability

To walk

Down the street

Up the stairs

Into the store

Around the block

Lest the ravages of age or infirmity

Make such basic mobility

A luxury.

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So important to remember this! ❤️

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Yes, mobility is a luxury...not a given. Hope your feet held up!

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I wish someone had told me this a long time ago.

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Oh, definitely purple. I need to start walking again! This summer has been hard for me with the heat, but I miss it.

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Yay for all the votes for purple! I really don’t understand why they get called blue - ditto for blue asters. I had 2 summers post Covid where I couldn’t tolerate heat at all and had to wear an ice vest to be outside (SUCH a good look). I’m doing much better now but feel you on the difficulty of heat!

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I forgot to cast a vote for purple…and yay for ice-vest free summer outings💜

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I recently wore a damp cloth on my neck to go to craft club at the library on one of the hottest days we had here - it wasn't cute, but it allowed me to go and not feel sick!

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Whatever it takes! 💜

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WAIT I want to change my answer - it's periwinkle - a mixture of purple and blue.

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I accept your amendment! The word "periwinkle" has such a happy sound to it, doesn't it?

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I see more blue but I can see the purplish hue! My walks are confined to the nearby community center lately - we've had some milder days lately but I don't like to get all hot and sticky!!!

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It's very hard to avoid hot and sticky in an Arkansas summer!

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"The fields were sown in disapproval": haha, I know those days! What a perfect way of saying it. Another gorgeous poem, Lisa. Love it!

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Thank you so much, Priscilla! And thankfully, the fields seem to be sprouting different seeds today.

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They do that! lol

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It’s purple 💜💜💜💜💜

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Oh good, it’s not just me!

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I vote for purple too. And your poem is lovely, Lisa.

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Thank you, LeeAnn! May all future voting processes be this lighthearted and peaceful!

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What a delightful poem to walk into this morning! I am in the purple camp, too! Your poem is a walk in the morning, a wonderfully descriptive stroll through a landscape of heart, mind and body. Keep on walking, Lisa!

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Thank you, Larry! Seeing the comments rolling in, I think the purple camp is the place to be!

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🟣🟣🟣🟣

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