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I loved this post so much and, as you already know because I told you so offline (sister's advantage), this might be my all-time favorite poem of yours! The prompt was lovely and, while I didn't mean to be a copycat by "enjoying" a stovetop activity of my own, that is what ended up happening.

Say, if anyone knows computers/programming, can you tell me if my metaphor in the last three lines works? I was kinda winging it.

Failed Grilled Cheese

Can I do

just one thing

let alone

no thing?

It takes two emails

to grill a sandwich

one per side

or two word games

when I’m playing

hooky

But today I went

screenless, made myself

stand still with my spatula

feeling dull

but not exactly

impatient, more like

resigned.

My eyes

had two choices:

the task at hand

or just past that

(not exactly cheating)

the smeared, crumb-ridden

stovetop that signified

future work

I chose the latter, naturally

and used my spatula

too much

fussing my sandwich

around the pan

before it was cured

so that it partially

molted, and with its

bread-skin compromised

lost its secret inner world

of mayo and pesto

and pickles and

cheese and

became something

more like a

casserole

I ate it and

it was delicious

but what is the lesson?

Resume my normal

protocol of

parenthetical lunch prep

barely tapping

the brakes on my day?

Try again with the

dull method,

keep paring down

until I am One with

sandwich? Give up

and switch to cereal?

Or become a

faithful naturalist

of my own mind, track

--with curiosity only—

its comings and goings

its sparks and sputters

and how its ancient program

performs on an

all-new platform

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This is self-deprecation very well done, indeed. And so relatable. Rare is the human in this culture who hasn't been sucked into the vortex of hustle-bustle and overstimulation. I like to think I go slow, but there is a constant refrain of "more" going on behind the scenes. So many great lines here, too. I especially loved "parenthetical lunch preparation" and "barely tapping the brakes on my day."

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Loved this Rebekah. The in the moment movements of the mind in the simple acts of daily living. Of making a grilled cheese sandwich. Then this option to "become a faithful naturalist of my own mind." With Curiosity! So important, I ponder, without curiosity I doubt it could be possible.

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Rebekah, this is surely the greatest and most creative poem written about the making and cooking of a grilled cheese sandwhich! Besides making me desirous of my own grilled cheese, or one you--I loved the playful, joyful, musing and philosophical way you bring us through this wonderful masterpiece about a life moment. This is the work of a true poet.

And, I'm not sure exactly why, but learning Lisa and you are sisters makes me feel lighter and brighter. I am glad to be present with you both!

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The fact that we are sisters makes me feel lighter and brighter, too!

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This is a triple like/love!

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This Moment

Dark, cold winter night,

when all seems quiet and still,

I listen.

The owls in conversant song

Lead me wondering if their music is calming,

a plea for sanity,

or the gossip of the day.

Across Nick’s meadow is the lope of deer,

graceful dancers of the dark,

vanishing into the forest that frames

this octagon bowl of space.

The scurry of a marauding racoon,

fresh from their night’s thievery;

A scowling gaze warning me to stay back.

Shooting star paints the sky,

cosmic etch-a-sketch

that inspires poets to pen.

Slow meandering skunk crawls along

confident in its defenses and protection

from the likes of me.

We stand safe in our mutual avoidance of conflict.

I wish for northern lights,

rainbow symphony that expands

our hopes for a new beginning.

And I stop, conscious of how often

I wish for even more…

I hear a small whisper from the night spirits,

“enjoy this moment.”

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I know I'm not the first to say this, but the phrase "cosmic etc-a-sketch" delights me to no end! I was also struck by "conversant song" and by the powerful simplicity of the ending - "enjoy this moment." Thank you so much for sharing, Larry!

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Lisa, Thank you for your kind and sparkling comment! Have a peaceful weekend!

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Oh Larry this is so wonderful! Loved "cosmic etch-a-sketch" And how this beautiful night brought a longing for more. Yes what wisdom in that small whisper, "enjoy the moment." I can relate to this more times than I care to count. Yet life is always so gracious guiding me back to the unfolding of this precious moment.

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Thank you Julie! I expect as a widely attuned you not only hear those whispers but you follow them! Peace be with you!

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What a magical nighttime scene. I won’t be able to see shooting stars anymore without thinking cosmic etch-a-sketch -- I love that! Your ending really resonated with me; I had a moment like that just today, where I found myself wanting more out of something that was already perfectly lovely. Next time I’ll listen up for that “enjoy this moment” whisper, it’s sure to be there.

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Rebekah, often for me, I need a thuderous roar to remind me! Thank you for your kind and gracious comment!

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"the forest that frames this octagon bowl of space" - I love this line, Larry. And the bustling traffic of creatures in the nighttime forest, is really delightful. Enjoy this moment, indeed. I have enjoyed this moment vicariously through your enchanting poem...thank you for sharing!

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Thank you Keith. Your comments to all of us are beautifully kind. Thank you for that, and you!

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Gah! a typo. Here is the full poem, again (can't figure out how to edit my original post!):

A January day,

ordinary in its unfolding,

turns dramatic when reviewed

in time lapse of mind’s eye.

Gray and flat to start,

it slowly builds to a boil

of pinprick flurries

frenzied as

they squeeze from the sky

like blood from a stone.

“Fuck you, climate crisis,”

spit the pinpricks.

“Winter lives!”

Sun, in its supporting role,

bursts through a curtain

of fast moving clouds,

punctuating

the desperation of the declaration.

Then, in the blink of hours

that feel like moments, sun returns

and in magnificent encore,

edges clouds iridescent.

Sun bows deeply and

gestures sweepingly

to the starlit starlet called

Twilight, whose pink promise

salves the hearts bruised

by days on days

of horrors across borders.

Holds tenderly hearts

swollen with love

that threatens to burst.

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I don't think there is an 'edit' option, which is super weird, but there you have it.

Keith, I love this idea of reviewing the unfolding of an ordinary day in timelapse and the drama that highlights in the seemingly mundane. I take this poem to mean that you got some snow, too - hooray for a breath of winter amidst all of this non-winter! There are many beautiful images and turns of phrase in your poem, but the one that keeps turning itself over in my mind is that simple phrase early on - "ordinary in its unfolding." I'm imagining an ordinary piece of paper being unfolded and then unfolded some more and some more still until finally it becomes clear that it's not ordinary . . . and that maybe nothing's ordinary, and every feature of this world is far too fleeting for "ordinary" to have any tangible meaning.

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I think you've nailed it...every feature of this world is far too fleeting for "ordinary" to have tangible meaning. <3

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Lisa, I like this brilliant insight!

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This is a tremendously thoughtful and evocative poem. Lisa is so insightful in her comments about your marvelous poem. I love the way you paint with your words, and how each word and line connects and weaves us through the journey you are inviting us to take. The endign of the poem is magnificient:

Sun bows deeply and

gestures sweepingly

to the starlit starlet called

Twilight, whose pink promise

salves the hearts bruised

by days on days

of horrors across borders.

Holds tenderly hearts

swollen with love

that threatens to burst."

A gracious and holy Wow!

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Thanks so much, Larry...I'm so glad you enjoyed it! And agreed...Lisa's insights about nothing being ordinary in this world because of the fleeting nature of it all are spot on. How can the ephemeral possibly be ordinary??

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Ashe!

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Keith, I love this! It's at once playful and fantastical and so real, with our right-now problems front and center, but the promise of healing as well... by the "starlit starlet" -- OMG I was so delighted by that! I could see your sped-up day so clearly and loved getting brought into it.

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Thanks Rebekah...and yes, the power of poetry to help us metabolize pain through play and imagery. So glad you enjoyed it :)

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Keith, I also wanted to mention that I find an edit function when I click on the three dots... at the lower right of my comment. Being a frequent typo maker, I need it. I can't access the function when I am typing from my phone, however.

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Oh that's so helpful to know! I've never found it on my phone either, but I guess it is available on the computer!

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Thanks Lisa, moved by today's share. I too write these love letters. The last one I did was very unexpected. I was deeply moved by it. What an amazing practice with such incredible wisdom, literally right at our fingertips. As for the prompt, seeing joy in the mundane. The mundane is a powerful place to hang out, but not the easiest to maintain. And there is the key, don't try to "maintain" it! My poem...

There is power in the mundane.

Something inexplicable within simplicity.

Not as an event to capture and detain,

but through a precious relinquishment.

An ongoing entering,

without ever really arriving.

Continually crossing the threshold,

while always being right here.

.

This morning in the shower the sun

was shining through the window.

Light rays were playing with the rising steam,

like whiffs of smoke dancing in delight.

Warmth surrounded me in a delicious calm,

a perpetual waterfall of anointed blessings.

Drops dripping down the pane of glass,

merging collectively into the waters below.

.

For a moment I had a thought about a poem.

Then in a flash, it all disappeared.

Grasping is not the means.

One cannot hold onto anything when

going through the eye of the needle.

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Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts and this lovely poem, Julie! “The mundane is a powerful place to hang out” - yes, and yet we have such a collective tendency to run from it, whether through distraction or other means. (Or at least I do.) But there’s such power in the “ongoing entering” that you so beautifully describe in your poem. Sometimes I fall into the trap of experiencing a really lovely moment of mindfulness and then wanting to grab onto that and never slip out of presence again! But of course, that moment when you wake back up to Right Now is such a delicious moment - and you can’t have it without first falling asleep.

Thank you again for your beautiful offering!

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Yes this is the irony of it! "Right Now is such a delicious moment - and you can’t have it without first falling asleep."

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The imagery of light playing with steam and smoke dancing in delight....delicious! And I can relate so viscerally of having glimmers of poems appear then disappear in an instant. "One cannot hold onto anything when going through the eye of the needle." Such a mic drop.

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"Mic drop" wow, I love that analogy. Thank you very much!

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What a splendid poem, Julie. The range and depth of your creating, writing and thinking is an inspiration and a blessing. The ending is stunning:

"For a moment I had a thought about a poem.

Then in a flash, it all disappeared.

Grasping is not the means.

One cannot hold onto anything when

going through the eye of the needle."

I feel blessed by your writing every time. Thank you so much.

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Thanks Larry! Yes, the ending was one of those moments in writing when I didn't feel I was the one writing. A powerful moment.

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Those are my favorite moments!

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I love your pancake poem - there is so much there. I guess mine is a little bit about not feeling ready for what comes next, too.

I spent the morning

mourning a marriage

that is not my own,

but felt as much a part of me;

two people who I have only

ever known together.

I sat with my shocked sobs,

yet...

I knew, didn't I?

There was that feeling,

floating in my periphery,

I kept telling myself to ignore,

telling me something

was changing.

While I contemplated divorce

last year, I never imagined

they would commit to it,

but here I am

crying over the shape of

two people I must now

hold separately.

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This is so beautiful, A! I'm sorry that you're going through this hard thing but grateful that you're letting us inside your experience. The ending - "here I am crying over the shape of two people I must now hold separately" is so poignant and powerful.

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Thank you, Lisa. You've already created such an inviting space, I knew it would be held tenderly here.

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I found this deeply moving, and just as deeply meaningful (and needed). Grief is barely supported in our culture, period. But grief around losses that *seem* more distal than proximal, or more adjacent than direct, gets really next to no acknowledgement. Yet this kind of grief can cut so deeply. Thank you for shining a much-needed light on that, and in such a beautiful way. Your ending is really gorgeous.

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Thank you, Keith. I agree, I think it's important to be more open about grief in general, and perhaps especially in regard to losses that may not appear as deep. I appreciate you holding space for it as well.

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This is so dear and so powerful, A. Thank you for sharing a part of this tender, difficult and transforming time. My heart and prayers are with you and your beloveds. I am thinking of Mary Oliver's poem, The Journey, reading your own very beautiful poem. Much love and light to you.

The Journey

One day you finally knew

what you had to do, and began,

though the voices around you

kept shouting

their bad advice--

though the whole house

began to tremble

and you felt the old tug

at your ankles.

"Mend my life!"

each voice cried.

But you didn't stop.

You knew what you had to do,

though the wind pried

with its stiff fingers

at the very foundations,

though their melancholy

was terrible.

It was already late

enough, and a wild night,

and the road full of fallen

branches and stones.

But little by little,

as you left their voices behind,

the stars began to burn

through the sheets of clouds,

and there was a new voice

which you slowly

recognized as your own,

that kept you company

as you strode deeper and deeper

into the world,

determined to do

the only thing you could do--

determined to save

the only life you could save.

Mary Oliver

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Thank you, Larry! I keep meaning to explore more of Oliver's work.

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She is remarkable. 💚

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Lisa, thanks for this invitation to elevate the mundane. I love it, and I love your poem, where you manage, as you so often do, to combine play and poignancy. Your landing made me misty-eyed - it perfectly encapsulates the bittersweetness of life happening faster than we would allow if bestowed with the power to slow time.

Here is my offering for this round, hot off the presses:

A January day,

ordinary in its unfolding,

turns dramatic when reviewed

in time lapse of mind’s eye.

Gray and flat to start,

it slowly builds to a boil

of pinprick flurries

frenzied as

they squeeze from the sky

like blood from a stone.

“Fuck you, climate crisis,”

spit the pinpricks.

“Winter lives!”

Sun, in its supporting role,

bursts through a curtain

of fast moving clouds,

punctuating

the desperation of the declaration.

Then, in the blink of hours

that feel like moments, sun returns

and in magnificent encore,

edges clouds iridescent.

Sun ws deeply and

gestures sweepingly

to the starlit starlet called

Twilight, whose pink promise

salves the hearts bruised

by days on days

of horrors across borders.

Holds tenderly hearts

swollen with love

that threatens to burst.

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Lisa! This is absolutely the most remarkable, engaging and interesting description of pancakes being cooked that I have read, heard or experienced! Not to mention the wonderful coming to awareness that you describe. There is a buddhist story that has a refrain "enjoy the blueberries" and I think of yours "Enjoy the pancakes!" I have one of those meetings this evening that I would just as soon avoid, and as I go through it, the phrase "enjoy the pancakes" and the lovely description of Mickey Pancakes will lighten my spirit and help me smile! Thank you being a chef of many flippers!

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Thank you for your generous comment, Larry! It also had me wondering how many descriptions you've heard of pancakes being cooked. 😂 I'm intrigued by this Buddhist story with the refrain of "enjoy the blueberries," and I'm off to google it now! I hope your meeting holds some lovely surprise for you, however small.

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Hah! Now this ia good question! I suppose Jack Johnson's song "Banana Pancakes" might not count!

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