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Well done Lisa! Beyond my amazement that your creative mind finds inspiration in the cracks in the asphalt, your poem raises the swirliing paradox of time, frends, adversary, co-conspirator, partner and stumbling block all together even in the scope of the day. It brought to mind a poem that the class above me when I was a junior in high school wove throughout the yearbook. It connected with that 17 year old teen and still does, alll these years later, sappy as it may sometime seem. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i3FdlAgkTI0

Another Monday, Two Months Later

Now I have the time

to take you riding

in the car

to lie with you in private deserts

or eat with you

in public restaurants.

^

Now I have the time

for football all fall long

and to apologize

for little lies and big lies

told when there was no time

to explain the truth.

^

I am finished

with whatever tasks

kept me from walking

in the woods with you

or leaping in the Zanford sand.

^

I have so much time

that I can build for you

sand castles out of mortar.

^

Now I have the time

to see bad movies

and read bad books

aloud to you.

I can now waste time

on you and on myself.

^

Mid-week picnics.

Minding my temper in traffic.

Washing your back

and cleaning out my closets.

Staying in bed with you

long past the rush hour

and the pangs of hunger.

And listening

to the story of your life

in deadly detail

whatever time it takes

I have that time.

^

I've always wanted

to watch flowers open

all the way,

however long the process took.

^

I'd hoped that I might

take you traveling

down the block

or to wherever,

now I have the time.

^

Now I have the time

to be bored

to be delivered

to be patient

to be understanding,

to give you

all the time you need.

^

Now I have the time.

Where are you?

Rod McKuen

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"I am finished / with whatever tasks / kept me from walking / in the woods with you." This is so lovely and sad! Thank you for sharing, Larry!

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Rod was a sort of poetic hero when I was a boy.

I remember the song seasons in Sun

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Same for me. Very cool…

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I had tea this moring with a brilliant former student, and we came to talk about a painful loss in our community 18 years ago of another death from suicide that tore lives apart. They were partners to the beloved who died that day, and they still move through this journey of grief and loss savoring the magical time they had together.

All this time later

we speak of it,

the curtain of shame removed,

the drowning incapacitation of silence

the darkness smothering light,

lifted like sea fog

dissolved into wide beauty of the ocean.

^

That beautiful autumn day 18 years ago,

When the earth shifted.

Cataclysmic messages coming forth

like missiles from unseen invader

as Elias slid into a world beyond our own.

^

A million tears have not brought him back.

All the myths the family needed

have lost their meaning,

gone like the bright life that once was.

^

At this table sipping tea,

I listen as you share the dark roads

that tragic passing led you down.

Finally merging into that place

where the loss still lives,

and your heart always remembers,

planning the seeds for love to

grow again.

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This is beautiful and heart-wrenching, Larry. "When the earth shifted..." and "Finally merging into that place where the loss still lives..." really stood out to me. I love the picture you paint at the end, about the loss still being there & the heart still holding it, while planting seeds for love to come.

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Thank you Rebekah. These losses stay with us, just rotate to other parts of our spirit.

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What a beautiful way to put that.

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"All the myths the family needed / have lost their meaning" - there's so much truth and pain in these words. It makes me think of Kate Bowler, who has several books and a wonderful podcast ("Everything Happens") and talks a lot about how when she was diagnosed with Stage 4 colon cancer as a young mother, people would try to comfort her with words like "everything happens for a reason" or "God has a plan for you," and how all those words suddenly felt meaningless and even cruel in the face of her child most likely being left motherless on this earth. Maybe some wounds are too deep to be touched by words at all, but your poem does a lovely job of holding grief and darkness and pain alongside healing and hope.

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Time

is all we have

Without it

The river will not run

The key will not turn

Time

Without it

There is no here to there

No rocking slowly

In that comfy rocking chair

And even when our time runs out

Still the ticking hand of time tocks on

Tick tock, tick tock, tick tock

Or with an hour glass in your hand

Till that last glistening grain of sand

Falls

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"Without it / the river will not run" - beautiful! Isn't it interesting that we can have such a sense of scarcity around time, almost as if we would pause it if we could, but all the while, time keeps ticking, the river keeps flowing, grains of sand keep falling. And if we could hit pause - what would be the point of anything? This is a lovely and thought provoking poem!

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This is so moving, Tearlach. As someone in the twilight of a life, every line resonates with me. I especialy love this phrase "without it/There is no here to there." Indeed! A very special gift from you. Thank you.

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Twilight time for we two

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My poem is rudely long. I just couldn't stop writing!

.

'Clock of the Rock'

.

What time is it on the clock

of the world? asked the podcast host:

a softball question

with as many right answers

as there are bodies.

.

Which world? I would have asked

if I were her guest.

.

The Big Bang

that dumped snow in my yard

before Thanksgiving is not unlike

the one that heaved everything

into being, each crystal now

going about its business of clumping,

settling, splintering,

and redefining itself,

unhaunted by the inevitable

bloodletting of March.

.

It is barely past midnight for the snowpack

but don’t be fooled. Its fragile world

will implode before ours

most likely.

.

That was a slip, I said ours,

but whose is that? What time is it for

the fascists? The artists?

The housewives? The oppressed?

Maybe ours should have read Rs:

a world for every letter,

each orbiting independently around

a galactic Bluetooth keyboard.

.

(I have a soft spot for R.

May its feet grip the path after

S slides and O rolls away,

long past the detonation of X

and concomitant taking out

of all bystanders

except U, of course.)

.

What time is it for

lowland ponderosa pines

and small twitching noses

of the alpine that smell

only sky now, no more up

to scurry?

.

What time is it for the heavies

of Animalia -- the grizzly bears

and orcas and dragonflies and rats

and rat-faced billionaires

touting Mars?

.

(I love this place and will not be leaving.

Look for me here until my midnight or its,

whichever comes first.)

.

Two feet under this early winter

are rocks that have been buried

more times than any clock can measure.

When the first flakes

fuzz their faces they don’t know

whether their next sun

will be in this revolution

or a million years out.

They turn the epochs like pages,

like hands dialing round.

They keep time for us

as we have our day.

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Bring on the rudely long! I can't decide what I love most . . . this gorgeous stanza "What time is it for / lowland ponderosa pines / and small twitching noses / of the alpine that smell / only sky now, no more up / to scurry?" or your almost as gorgeous reference to "rat-faced billionaires / touting Mars!"

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I love this: "I am such a tiny bird, and the sea is so vast. Some migrations must happen over a span of generations rather than in a single lifetime. I can still choose to be part of that movement."

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Thank you, Margaret! Sometimes I have as much fun writing the reflections and prompts as I do the poems.

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I know I keep sounding like a creepy super-fan, but seriously—it takes a great deal of talent to do all three in the same post.

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Oh PLEASE be my creepy super fan! I’ll be yours!!

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😁😁😁 With my crazy eyes and gushing comments, I hereby pledge my creepy fandom.

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I looked through the emojis to try to find the creepiest possible response, and I think maybe this melting face is the one - 🫠🫠🫠

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😁😱

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That tiny river cutting into the asphalt, such a strong image. All big things have tiny beginnings. I have a brother who is a jungle canopy research scientist for the Smithsonian. He once told me that after looking at ancient Maya temples, which were huge, and covered a lot of square miles, that in a short 5,000-10,000 years all traces of human habitation would be invisible from an airplane.

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Wow, that's an incredible thought, isn't it? As much as I'd like humans to survive and become better than we currently are, the thought of the planet living on without us, regrowing its forests until we're just stories buried in the soil, has its own kind of sad beauty, too.

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Meaning sad for us. Probably not at all sad for most other beings on this planet!

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Exactly what my brother said.

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Just stories buried in the soil. That's not a bad legacy I suppose, especially if you were to create a poem for us.😉

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Haha, I’ll keep that in mind! Maybe we can all be poems buried in the soil.

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Written directly from the prompt

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Nice poem Lisa. Time is a great prompt. Enjoyed your post Larry.

Found this in some old lyrics about “real love”:

Real Love

RL is hard to come by

RL is hard to find

RL don’t run away child

RL don’t change its mind

RL ain’t got no grudges

RL ain’t bound by time

RL won’t leave you lonely

I say RL is hard to find

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I love these lyrics! If you ever record the song, I'd love to hear it!

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I’ve got a recording on my phone. It’s sloppy, a start. Happy Thanksgiving 🦃!

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So nice Billy! Is this your song for from another song? Keny Loggins has a lovely song called The Real Thing" about real love.

And it can be so hard to find in this earthly realm!

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