You don’t need to reach
always for some epiphany, don’t need to wrest a poem from the day— words that are pointing but never the point. You comb the beach, neck bent low, sifting for one perfect pebble, luminous and round, meant only for you and exactly for now. Right now, waves are spilling onto the sand. There is too much ocean to hold back. A vulture tilts in the wind, black kite stringless. All you see is light and its absence. I dare you to find a single stone that doesn’t shine when wet. I dare you to find anything on this yawning stretch of sand that isn’t already perfect.
Photo by Ashlyn Ciara on Unsplash
The Prompt
If you’re up-to-date on posts, then you’ve probably noticed that I am not! I’m in the Pacific North West with family and have been doing dozens of joyful and creative things—none of which involve poetry, at least not until I wrote this poem today. I look forward to catching up on reading your poems and comments when I make it home later this week. For now, I wanted to at least offer up a poem and prompt.
This poem emerged once I stopped trying to make it happen. I headed out for a walk on the beach, thinking that I “needed” to write a poem to share with you all. For me at least, that sort of pressurized energy shuts creativity down rather than fueling it. So I gave myself permission to not write a poem. And that permission-giving ended up prompting a poem after all.
If you’d like a prompt to play with, give this a try: notice where you need or crave permission right now, and then give yourself that permission. This self-administered permission slip could be related to poetry—like permission to write “only” a very short poem or permission to experiment with a new form. Or you might offer yourself permission in a completely different domain—like permission to take a nap or permission to do something just for fun.
Your poem might play with the theme of permission, or you might dive straight into the experience itself (writing a short poem! taking a nap! learning to yodel!) and see what poem emerges from there. In any case, I look forward to reading them!
P.S. As I was writing my poem, I found myself thinking of this gorgeous and probably already familiar-to-you poem by Mary Oliver: Wild Geese. It’s worth reading—and then reading again!
Most days I have to remember
I exist
I have permission to exist
To take up space
To use my voice, my hands, my heart
I have permission to ask for what I want
And to believe I might get it
To believe the people who love me
WANT to give me what I want
It's a small thing
Seems I should know I have permission
To exist
But it's easy to forget when one was raised
To only consider the Other
Never one's Self
And when one's Self is naturally
Attuned to the Other
But for today
I exist
For me
Your poem is so lovely. I'm especially struck by "I dare you to find anything on this yawning stretch of sand that isn’t already perfect."
And, as always, such a generous prompt. I hope my poem isn't too morbid-sounding. I just get frustrated with how I don't let myself feel certain things sometimes (and other times it seems like all I can do is feel). I'd like "permission" to find a balance between feeling very real fears and also not being consumed by them.
Permission to be afraid
.
May I sit with this fear for a while
not pushing myself to let it go
not scolding myself for scenarios
.
but instead letting fear wash over me
carrying me deep into its sea
until I drown in its darker waves
until my body floats to the shore
until the eyes are snatched from my skull
until my bones turn white and then brown
until my hair is plucked up by birds
to line the nests for their solemn eggs
until I’m forgotten and forgotten again
until it is like I was never here?
.
May I let myself go that far into fear
and then let myself drift back home again
and find myself lying on the sand
alive and with eyes and a full head of hair
finished with being afraid for now?