Panera
She tilts her head, and her smile lights the room. She talks with her hands, giggles, touches her face. She is 75. She is 17. He lingers at the booth where she sits, his fingers drumming the beat of a song inside him. She makes him want to dance. She leans in. He stands taller than I remembered. He is every day of 80, every bit of 18. I used to see him here on Wednesdays, five years ago, when he was an older man, the woman on his arm a fading memory he gently tended. I never paused to wonder if he was fading, too— forgetting some rhythm, some dance move all his own until I saw him here today and found my foot tapping with vicarious delight.
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The Prompt
I wrote this poem in April, while sitting in Panera and waiting on an oil change. Usually the poems I offer here are brand spanking new, but I haven’t written any complete poems (just fragments) since Wednesday, so I pulled this from my notebook to share.
The delight I felt watching what seemed to be a happy flirtation between an older man and woman still feels real and alive to me. Admittedly, right after I wrote this poem (I scribbled it out while witnessing the interaction), events took an unexpected turn. The happy gentleman with the song in his heart returned to his own table, and lo and behold another man arrived on the scene. He brought food for two to the booth where the woman sat. I got a husband vibe. When he sat down, though, the entire demeanor of the woman at the table changed. She ceased to be 17 and suddenly became 75 or more, smile gone, face creased with what looked like extreme irritation. I was there for awhile, and her bright energy never returned. I could feel the tension at their table. It was both fascinating and sad to witness such a complete shift in her energy.
My oh my, what a lot of interesting things you can witness, just sitting around in a Panera! If you’d like a prompt to play with today, then I invite you to pick a restaurant, any restaurant. This could be a restaurant that your family frequented during your childhood, the restaurant you went to before senior prom or right after college graduation, the diner where you picked up your worst-ever case of food poisoning, your current favorite restaurant, or the McDonalds up the road.
Once you’ve picked a restaurant, go there—either literally or in your memory. In either case, take some time to ground yourself in the place and its energy. Notice the sights, sounds, smells. Is there music? Chatter? The clanging of dishes? What’s the decor like? Is there a particular place in the room you like to sit?
What do you eat in this restaurant, and why do you choose that particular food? Who else is present? Without being creepy (unless you’re doing this strictly in your imagination, in which case, creep on) what do you notice about the interactions or emotions of the people around you? Do you find yourself pulled toward a particular person or table of people? If so, let yourself imagine what story it is they find themselves in today. Take it a step further/weirder, if you’d like, and imagine what story some benevolent stranger in the restaurant might be writing about you.
From the swirl of all these noticings and imaginings, pull out the thread that intrigues or delights or challenges you most. Let that thread guide your poem into being. I look forward to reading whatever you share, friends. Your comments are delicious—far more so than anything Panera serves up!
Here's a recollection of what it was like to go out to eat with my one "bad" ex-boyfriend. I'm calling it "Why We Never Went Out."
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How you know you’re cooked
is if you can’t sit across the
table from one another.
Your clothes pinch
and your face burns
in a room too bright for steak.
Unbuffered by a ballcap,
his eyes are more serious
than you ever bargained for,
and you wish you could pull
someone else into this
dinghy of a date -- any old
third party – but you know, too,
that this is your sea to be
lost at. The server brings
fresh air when she trawls past,
but she is no savior,
clearly in league with the host
who planted you here on stage,
tidal sweep of hardwood
all around. The others dine
dimly on the horizon, chuckling,
clinking glasses. They paid
extra for the show, and
are finding it richly comedic:
the couple whose voices rattled
every plate in the house last night
today have no lines,
all words having sunk
to the very bottom.
Oh my, this is such a rich poem and the story that follows is another poem. I could just feel her energy soaring and then so disappointedly coming back to earth again.